This isn't about ...
how I get my motivation but rather how I lack it. I have no motivation. I am one of the laziest persons you will ever meet. I saw a video on Facebook once about how lazy people are also intelligent people. I'm not saying that it's true, but it could be. I've always wanted to write, either professionally or just for myself. Someone told me once that if I really wanted to be a writer then I should do it every day, in the morning as soon as I wake up. I can barely function before coffee. So I went many years without writing. But once I had my Aha moment and decided to pursue this as a career I am more motivated than ever!
Wait?! Do I need a plan? Uh oh! Yeah, I don't think I can do that. It's not the plan that will be hard, it's the sticking to the plan. I also get sidetracked easily so that doesn't help.
I was thinking about only writing for 30 minutes a day but I've been at this for an hour and have watched several youtube videos, checked e-mail and browsed Facebook while doing it. I will have to put my computer in Airplane Mode in order to get things done. I was also thinking about maybe combining writings from different days. Writing for 30 minutes here and a few minutes on another day, okay more like ramblings then combine them into one blog post. Today is Thursday. We'll see...
Still Saturday....I am so glad that I decided to do this, the writing I mean. I finally feel like I have a purpose, a function. Got to get the stories out of my head. I know that I mentioned somewhere in a post that I have a vivid imagination. I'm always thinking of situations for either myself or other people. I have a confession to make, I also have arguments in my head with other people. Have you ever done that? Had an imaginary argument with your spouse or someone else? I'm sure some of you said yes. It's okay, you don't have to admit it out loud. As I fall asleep at night I come up with stories in my head too. Been doing that all my life. It keeps me from thinking about life stuff too much. But then I can't fall asleep because I am thinking about my characters. One of these days I will learn how to shut my mind off and go to sleep. I need to get my self-esteem up a little too. I know that I'm a good writer, but I am the only one that thinks that. I don't know anyone that thinks it too. I started an online course (for free too!) from an especially nice lady who has been working as a Freelance writer and she teaches others how to do it. I can make money at something I love doing. Well, my 30 minutes of daily writing time is up. I will have to do tomorrow's segment late because my son wants to be out of the house by 8 am. I think he's just excited.
Monday, Not Sunday
Okay, so today is Monday. I didn't write at all yesterday. We took D to college. It was a three-hour trip. He didn't have much that he took with him so the unloading part didn't take too long at all. His roommate and family were also there. For those of you saying that at least you got to meet them. We already knew them. D was with him in high school and his dad owns a business that stocks the vending machines at the IRS. So that is a good thing that happened. I feel a lot better about leaving him there knowing that he already knows someone. I'm not afraid that he wouldn't be able to make friends, I know that he would. Just easier knowing that he already had one there. When we left and said our goodbyes. I only shed one tear. Yes, just one. I know what you are thinking, your little boy is off to being an adult, and only one tear? I said goodbye to my oldest daughter E 2 years ago so I am kinda used to them leaving. Now I only have one more to go. She keeps telling me that when she goes I'm going to cry buckets. Nope, I'm going to party! Just kidding. I'm proud of my children I know that they will be back so I'm not that worried. After we left we got in the car and were immediately hungry. We looked for a place to eat and we were almost there when D called. He forgot his laptop in the car. We ate first then went back to give it to him. When we dropped off his laptop he said that he was delayed coming down because he was talking to the guys across the hall. See, he is already making friends. What were you so worried about?
I need to be focusing on getting ready for our trip to New York now. That is the next leg of our life journey. My youngest daughter C is taking business courses in school. As part of the coursework, they have to make a business plan. She is also a stylish girl and likes to wear bow ties. She also makes her own bow ties. So she made her bow ties her business. She named it Tie It On. Yes, you can order from her. They had a Regional contest where they talk about their business. They made a power point presentation and even made samples for showing the judges. She placed second which means that she gets to go to New York and compete on a national level. The winner gets $25,000 to start their own business. We will be spending three days there. I can't wait. I am more excited than she is. I've never been to New York. I also have a friend that lives there whom I haven't seen in 30 years. There is a lot to do. She is having to make 50 bow ties because they gave her an option of selling her product while there. We are going to have so much fun!
WednesdayIt is Wednesday. I know that it is Wednesday and even though it's labeled up there, all morning I thought it was Tuesday. I need to be writing in the morning more often.
I'm stressing bad today about writing. What if I'm not good enough? What if everyone hates it? What if I can't make a living at it? So many questions, I just need to dive in and do it. I talked to my friend today and she gave me an inspiration for a short story so I have that to work on now. I thought of an article to work on too. Just to use it as a practice article to see if I can actually write one. I know that I can write short stories, but articles are different. My friend did text me a wonderful text that said,
“Always remember you are
Braver than you believe
Stronger than you seem
Smarter than you think and
Loved more than you know.”
I started writing this and realized that I didn't have my music on. I am listening to an Ambient station on Pandora. I chose this to listen to this type of music because it is soothing. Another reason is that there are no words. I won't be singing along and can keep my focus on the writing. I truly believe that music can drive you. I don't think that I have ever met a person that has said that they don't like music. Have you?
Okay, I have this scheduled to go live soon so I am going to stop here. I'm pretty sure that I have written enough. Don't want to lose my reader's attention, right?
So tell me, what did you think? Should I keep on doing it or just keep doing it and keep it to myself? Did you enjoy reading it? Let me know what you think in the comments.